💔 On the verge of giving up?

💔 On the verge of giving up?

I’m finding it difficult on how to go about writing this blog without it sounding totally depressing as this is something I can absolutely relate to right now.

Hope hurts, like it literally can be pain staking sometimes to keep hoping, to keep believing, to stay positive, to keep striving. Some days I want to throw in the towel or is that Just me? You know those days where nothing anyone says can penetrate the inner core of what you are feeling.
How many of you are dealing with the disappointment of something you were hoping for right now? How many are on the verge of giving up? There’s a saying that says hope deferred makes the heart sick & boy they weren’t lying!

There’s a woman that I heard of who had some health issues. She was going to the doctors and medics on a regular basis trying to find out what was wrong and why she had this problem going on but also to see what they could do to help her. She literally spent years going back & forth and nothing was to her success. Imagine that! Imagine spending every day for the last 12 years hoping that today will be the day, today I will finally have what my heart so desires & then I can start looking forward to another chapter in my life, only to have that hope dashed!! Having to Pick what’s left of your self up again to keep it moving, but one thing about this woman she never stopped believing or trying & that’s the key, in the end she got her healing. As long as you are alive you have hope and the possibility of change, once you lose hope ‘your a dead man’ as I heard someone say.

I write this blog because maybe your like me, maybe no one sees that in the midst of a room full of people you still feel lonely at times or that the night before dawn you had soaked your pillow with tears of anguish and desperation crying out to God please help me & God seemingly ‘silent’. I write this blog not to patronise you with self help tips but to be a listening ear & to say I can relate and to encourage you to stay hopeful, stay prayerful, stay in the bible, just stay!!! Don’t you dare move that foot from out the presence of God’s love.

To everything there is a season, maybe a very long one in your case but you will reap your reward if you don’t give in!

Signed Kamille, a girl who understands!

Are You Comfortable with the Words I ❤️ You?

Are You Comfortable with the Words I ❤️ You?

I’m posing a rhetorical question here, one that I’d like for you to think about for just a moment… are you? Not just comfortable in saying it to a loved one but also receiving those words been said to you on a genuine basis.
These 3 little words are probably the most over used words in our vocabulary often used by some without meaning or genuinity yet they carry so much power and depth.
I asked this question because I have no issues telling my nieces’ or nephew how much I love them! In fact I am determined that they know just how much I really do, so much so that for the rest of their lives I plan on saying these 3 little words over and over again to them. The reason being that I never really heard these words growing up. I know my parents love me and would do anything for me but I never heard I love you very often. Maybe it’s a thing in the Jamaican culture which I’m from where they find it hard to say or it’s just not words that are often thrown out there by parents to their children, but can be oh so important when done authentically!
I don’t know why this may be, but I’ve made up in my mind that when I am blessed to have a family of my own I want to create an atmosphere in my house where these words are not strange to hear but easily embraced and said from a place of authenticity.
Just last week I sent a voice message telling my now 4 year old niece that I love her & she boldly sent one back declaring the same. So is it just culture? Or is it nurture? Do we need to nurture a environment in which these words are consciously said, not just assumed? Making the effort to voice them vocally on a day to day basis not just allow them to get lost & unforgotten in the day to day routine of busy lives.
If you are a parent when was the last time you told your child you love them? If you are the child, when was the last time you heard the words I love you?
For some you probably cannot relate to this as you heard those words on a regular basis growing up, but those that didn’t, perhaps you went elsewhere searching for meaning to those words gravitating to those who said them knowing they potentially carried no depth to them.
We live in a generation that is at risk of doing anything to feel validated and loved, perhaps it’s time to reevaluate how and when we use these words?

The sad state of been rejected by a father

The sad state of been rejected by a father

I’m trying my best as I sit here and ponder, whats the best to way to write this post without sounding off key and out of order! But the thought occurred to me, does the state of our society match up with what is currently happening spiritually? I look around and I see a desperate situation where children and adolescents aren’t been nurtured by the very people God ordained them to be accountable to.

This is the sad state of our society and it’s not the way God ordained it to be!

I think about how much the father loves us and how he would never forsake us, He took the responsibility of a whole world on His shoulders and was man enough to push past His struggles and head to the cross for us, a perfect example of himself He left us, yet the dimise in responsible and faithful fathers who would go over and beyond for their children fails to imitate this.
See, if the enemy had his way, he would see that we were all father-less, left comfort-less and feeling inadequate unable to reach out and fulfil the Lord’s mandate, never experiencing true love and confidence in the security that God loves me for me because He created me and chose to die for me, even if He only came to earth for just one, and that just one was me, He would have still chosen to die for me!
Yet the sad state of reality is that the break down of the family is casting a shadow over the Man who prayed to the father for me. The one who cried out abba father why has thou forsaken me!! In shame He hung His head knowing that on that day, my reality will match up with His reality.
He did it all for me knowing that my earthy father would have forsaken me, yet he bids me to forgive and come boldly to His throne, to the security of his love and His great purpose for me! Here’s to the fathers playing their part, great job my man, your children will honour you!

This is a message to both the rejected and the rejectee’s Jesus loves you and He knows what you are going through! He knows the pain in your heart, the questions you haven’t had the chance to ask and the lack of support. Inability to see your self worth is not an obstacle that can stop him from healing you! You’ve been brought with a price and you are so worth it!
I hear the Lord saying there is a change on the horizon, a generation is bringing change to the current situation, where men will hold themselves accountable for the responsibility of their seed. There’s only one way to heaven, through the one who taught us to pray and gave himself as an example of what a father should be to a child He so loves unconditionally!!!

Signed, a child of God!

Are you being Squeezed?😓

Are you being Squeezed?😓

Yesterday as I was emptying a last bit of water from 2 plastic bottles into the sink ready for the recycling bin, one was a squeezy bottle with a flip open lid and the other was a turn by hand lid with a wide mouth where it could just be poured out. I stopped and looked at them as the thought suddenly occurred to me, this is how some of us are, some of us require a little squeezing to get the best out of us, whilst some it’s a little easier we just pour out greatness and creativity. All in all, whatever is within us has to come out somehow, no matter the method used!

The Lord is at work in all of us, some he is squeezing a little more than others but just know that everything He does carries a purpose attached to it. Sometimes we don’t see our own greatness or everything that the Lord has placed within us, so He has to take us through some experiences and some methods to get out what he has placed within us. My prayer for all of you been squeezed right now is to remain standing, remain believing, remain hopeful because I know there is purpose to your current situation. God doesn’t plan on squeezing you forever, after all it only takes a little squeezing before the juices start flowing!

God bless✌🏽️

The joys of dealing with workplace drama

The joys of dealing with workplace drama

How many of us dread going to work everyday because we don’t want to be caught up in the gossip and drama that it entails. I pity the people who absolutely love their job, love what they do for a living but have to deal with this side effect everyday. Often times the sad reality is that we spend most of our time with these people more than we do our own family, and this can have an emotional and stressful affect on you when you are faced with a lack of teamwork and often times foolish, no need for drama and oh, I’ve learnt it doesn’t matter how old your are and how long you have been there, it all happens. 

Don’t get me wrong, I know not everyone faces this situation and if you are not one of them, you are blessed, give God some praise! If you love what you do and look forward to going to work everyday I kinda envy you, but happy you’re not amongst the suffering. 

Anyway, here’s to my team strong who keeps calm and keeps it moving. Keeping it moving because sadly we got bills to pay and with the scarce pool of jobs out there we don’t have much choice. Let’s drink to your maturity and your strength in handling every difficult situation that comes your way. 

My best advice, yep you’ve probably guessed it, try and stay out of it as much as you can. It can be particularly hard as a Christian when you are in these environments trying to let your light so shine amongst men as the bible says but at the same time having to not seem like a total walkover. The difficulty comes in wanting to serve and going the extra mile for your boss but not wanting to be used as a scapegoat or a slave to their demands. 

At times when I got home, I often found myself questioning whether I was a ‘good’ Christian or not if I handled a situation in a particular way looking back over the day. Nobody is perfect, Christ didn’t call us to be, but thank the Lord, his blood washes whiter than snow!

Signed, an in-perfect Christian ☺️

Why does Ice desolve quicker in water and slower in a juice drink💭

Why does Ice desolve quicker in water and slower in a juice drink💭


There may be a really easy and scientific answer to this that I am unaware of and no I haven’t googled it, I’m trying my best not to but its always something I have noticed. At my current stand point in life, I too am trying not to melt too quickly by pressure and go back to what I am comfortable with, but am learning to become comfortable with been uncomfortable. It’s so easy to go back to situations we are comfortable with but deep down we hate, and reject change because that’s all we have ever known, and though we desire change and may begin to doubt what God has said about us, this is a journey and one that will hopefully become clearer as we walk along. 

Am sitting here and I’m wondering what my next move should be as at this point I have no idea, so far my plans and what I thought was Gods will haven’t worked out😕 what now Lord? Have I jumped ship too early? 

I have done nothing but pump myself full of the Word lately desperate to hear that He will come through for me because I cannot go back to the situation I so hated. I can’t hear anymore preaching on breakthroughs, purpose, calling and manifestation without now seeing it in my life and like trying my best not to google the answer, I’m trying to blot out all other voices whether positive or negative around me and only listen for the Lords. In all my confusion and desperation, I believe he is saying to be still!   

So the answer to my question though not the scientific one is if I’d stayed in the same situation I walked out of, I would have melted a lot quicker, but been on the outside of it, in different water, in different territory I’m not melting but beginning to thaw out from the difficult experiences I’ve had, hopefully slow enough for the Lord to step in and save me! 

Signed… a young woman walking by faith! ✌🏽️

Ask, Seek, Knock

Ask, Seek, Knock

Hey all,

This is just a little excerpt from a message I did at church a while back, I pray you will all be blessed by it.

In today’s society how do we as believers press forward and reach beyond any limitations or hindrances that inhibit us from progressing, pertaining and fulfilling our purpose?

I feel as though there are 3 tools that God has given us in order to reach forward and progress in these current times and that is to Ask, Seek, Knock

Matt 7:7-12

7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 for everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

9 “Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 

Ask: to ask is to make a request of or for, Although God knows what we need before we ask Him, He usually won’t provide our needs until we ask because He wants relationship with us. So ask, and keep asking, until you feel a release in your spirit—and then thank Him until you see the promise manifest.

Seek:  to try to locate or discover, It’s not always enough just to ask. More often than not, you also have to seek. In other words, add some works to your faith. If you’ve asked Him for a new job, seek a new job. If you’ve asked Him for healing, seek healing. Don’t sit back and wait for an angel to do all the work. As the bible says Faith without works is dead.

Knocking: (clearly not a physical thing) to strike with a hard blow or to affect in a specified way with a hard strike, If you seek, you will find. Once you see God’s promise in clear view, knock and keep on knocking until the promised door is open.

If you go to someone’s house and they are expecting you, when you knock on their door, you expect them to open. But if you’re like me, if they haven’t answered after a few seconds you begin to wonder what are they doing and again you’ll seek to find out where they are. So, once you’ve found what you’ve been asking for, once you see the breakthrough within reach, that’s when you start knocking…knocking signifies an urgency, it’s an impromptu act

Asking, seeking and knocking is some evidence of your faith, now you have the faith to believe you’re going to move in deed and action to gain those promises. Asking, seeking, and knocking requires action, it requires coming out of your comfort zone and doing things you are not comfortable with in order to make progress, we never truly know what we are capable of until we push ourselves beyond our comfort zone.

By using these 3 principles and the lord’s power in agreement he is enabling us to overcome any human obstacles. These principles work in combination with each other, the same way faith without works is dead is the same way asking, without seeking and knocking is ineffective.

Jesus often took himself away from the multitude and prayed by himself. Prayer and meditation will lift you to a higher place.Paul said he press towards the mark of a higher calling and encourages us not to become weary in well doing for in due season we shall reap what is ours. Don’t become weary in asking, in seeking, in knocking, in believing, in hoping and trusting in God.

I often say to the Lord, let me not be ashamed, father I believe in you, I believe in your word and your promises concerning my life, everyone around me knows that I believe and I’m hoping in you, I’m waiting on you so let me not be ashamed of that.

There is a time to pray once, hand it over to God, and trust Him to answer. But there is also a principle of persistent faith where you ask and keep on asking, seek and keep on seeking, and knock and keep on knocking until you receive the promise.

Often there are things that can inhibit us from asking, seeking, knocking and making progress in our lives.


Hebrews 6:1-3 This scripture speaks of leaving behind things you have already done, already mastered and moving onto new things, a moving forward in the right direction. There has to be progression in our lives, a moving towards a higher calling, a higher ground, and a higher level of ministry.

Looking at things from the wrong angle

Luke 5:4 The disciples would have given up, but maybe they were looking in the wrong area, from the wrong direction.  Jesus showed up on time and pointed them in a different direction. He’ll direct us and get us to look at things from a different angle in order to reap what we have been seeking for.


Another thing that can inhibit us from making progress is our will.

Paul willed to do good, he willed to move forward but every time he did so, evil presented itself. Every time we make up in our mind to move forward, to make sacrifices, to go after the promises of God, the old ways of thinking and complacency presents itself.

When God called Samuel in the middle of the night, he had a will to answer; he moved on the word of the man of God and did what he told him to do. When God called again, ‘speak lord for your servant hears’ Samuel wanted to know, he wanted to move forward.

Bishop Tudor Bismark in one of his sermons spoke about the will to fight, but I also feel you need to have the will to answer and the will to move forward. No one is going to force you to make progress, you have to want it!

To conclude…

In the story of Hannah, after she poured out her heart to the Lord and Eli pronounced a blessing on her life, the bible goes on to say in the process of time, Hannah conceived and bare a son and called his name Samuel saying, because I have asked for him from the Lord. Many of us are currently sitting in that little snippet of scripture where we are waiting in the process of time. We’ve asked but we are having to go through the process before we can conceive and give birth to that which we so desperately seek.

I encourage you to just wait on the Lord, its God who opens the door not man and He will surely open at the appointed time!